Monday, May 29, 2017

the weekly thing: mass of the fermenting dregs

hi, welcome to my fourth weekly thing. this hazy monday evening i'd like to talk about a band i've been listening to on my commutes hither and thither, japanese shoegaze phenomenon MASS OF THE FERMENTING DREGS (hereafter referred to as: motfd, for simplicity's sake, and also to encourage such a violent amalgamation of letters).


music is something i'm still learning to write about. it's a medium that, in my opinion, does everything it can to keep from being nailed to paper. lyrics are not enough to fully grasp any good song—if that were the case, let it be a poem or creed. lyrics are also unnecessary, and if present one need not always understand them to feel the weight of the music. at least, that's my fledgling opinion. growing up in a conservative christian background, i've had my fill of ham-handed lyrics, and from a young age began to avoid them altogether.

like any good web-based millenial growing up, the gateway drug of anime soon busted up and infected any and all previous hobbies and interests i had—the games i played became japanese-made (JRPG's, etc.), the cartoons i watched became anime, the movies and music i listened to, etc. etc. i was fanatical about GACKT and Utada Hikaru, had a crush on multiple anime characters (we can safely narrow down the timeline of my sexual awakening to this hazy no-man's land of pre-pubescence), etc. etc.


all that being said, from a younger age than most, i was steeped in a world of music so different from my physical surroundings'. i didn't (and still don't) understand much japanese beyond the typical bits that you learn via osmosis with years and years of subbed anime, but it never stopped me from being able to enjoy and emote with the music. it was almost as though the voice became the instrument and the language different notes and chords..

anyway, motfd is great. a shoegaze band formed in 2002, breaking up in 2010, and getting back together in 2015. the music is energetic and exhilarating. despite the language-barrier, the tunes are catchy and are guaranteed to get lodged in your head. beyond that, i don't know much of them at all and prefer it that way (to an extent, because i obviously wanna know when their next album drops, etc. etc.), because it becomes almost magical—songs that sink in your soul and speak to you in ways you might not fully understand yet. music from a far-away land that feels fantastic and surreal with its neon superflat (ironically). because the song's not telling you how to feel explicitly through lyrics, it's almost the most honest way to experience music.


i recommend it for boring drives, essay-writing, drawing, and running. i do not recommend it for conservative parents, mentioning at work, or playing aloud on your phone while you're walking on the sidewalk (which people do all the time with everything???).

my verdict: i'm not very good at talking about music at all, but you should still check out motfd.

Monday, May 22, 2017

the weekly thing: the underground railroad

hi, welcome to my third weekly thing. this (very hot and uncomfortable) monday afternoon i'd like to talk about a book i read for my monthly book club, Colson Whitehead's The Underground Railroad.

if the title was any indicator, it is by no means an "easy" book, which is simultaneously its strength and weakness. given the gravitas, it demands a certain amount of terror to even remotely begin to respectfully approach the subject matter (the enslavement of the consequently African American). though it's not the cat-of-nine-tails or the brutal punishments that await captured slaves that fills the reader with dread, so much as the feeling of futility in america; if a slave were to escape, where would they even go? what could they possibly do to secure peaceful livings for themselves and any family they might have? how could they scrub away the traumatizing lives they'd lived hitherto?

should the book have ended with this trajectory, it would have remained a brutally honest teardown of the american dream. thankfully, author Colson Whitehead's vision is not without hope, though it is certainly less "biblical" as one typically finds in accounts trying to alleviate the horrors of the early american slave-trade, openly-critical of the flawed theologies of the past and the theologies forgotten today. his answer instead: the revelation of the mythical underground railroad.

though the underground railroad in reality had nothing to do with trains or subterranean tunnels, this book has everything to do with them. cavernous mouths that defy explanation, whose origins are shrouded in mystery, filled with ornately decorated stations and their charismatic and heavily symbolic conductors. at the revelation, Cora asks a stationmaster who built the fantastic roads. ominously they reply, "who builds anything in this country?" the sublimely treacherous tunnels are shifting metaphor for many things, but perhaps the most damning is revealed in this quote from the aforementioned conductor:
Cora and Caesar climbed into the [train car] and Lumbly abruptly shut them in. He peered between the gaps in the wood. "If you want to see what this nation is all about, I always say, you have to ride the rails. Look outside as you speed through, and you'll find the true face of America." He slapped the wall of the boxcar as a signal. The train lurched forward. (p.69)
with the case for the mythic cracked open only pages before, the reader is left to interpret what the conductor meant. as Cora and co. hurtle down the tracks towards their uncertain fates, they have nothing to hold on to but each other and a hope that must defy the strength of the powers that be.

my verdict: read The Underground Railroad.

Monday, May 15, 2017

the weekly thing: wong kar-wai's Chungking Express

hi, welcome to my second weekly thing. this monday evening i'd like to talk about a movie i saw earlier this week that's really stuck with me, Chungking Express.

Listen while you Read!

there's something intoxicating nowadays about the mundane for us 20-somethings. maybe it's envy, or simplicity; it's hard to look at the world we live in and find much to be excited about at face-value. in a society increasingly anxious about its future, gems like wong kar-wai's Chungking Express reveal the fantastic wonder hidden in the noise of everyday living. the film is comprised of two stories, loosely connected through character interaction, but universal in themes of love and estrangement. for the initiated, it's the closest we'll ever get to Haruki Murakami in film (if not, yell at me and tell me what else is), so if only for that reason check it out.


between the hapless detective's ritual of "jogging until there's no more water in [my] body to waste on tears" and the beat-cop's pep-talks with his lover's forgotten tchotchkes (btw, both the dudes are cops, and that is sorta confusing in the middle), the film oozes with an intimate familiarity for those survivors of the silent break-up. no closure, and no chance of returning to the way things were, these characters wander the no-man's lands of their (now) singular lives, carrying ghosts in tins of pineapple and plastic airplanes.


after recently watching "your name.", i sat aghast in my theater-seat; could i ever experience the Greatest Love i possibly could outside of some Fantastic Intervention (the threads of fate unwinding, interdimensional travel, some special revelation)? how could i be sure in any relationship that wasn't shattering the earth at every moment with Inexplicable Love? thankfully, the afterglow wore off and the Borgesian garden of forking paths that my emotions had wrought began to unfurl before me, leading to a simple, cool clearing wherein sat this film.

Chungking Express is a reminder that the lives we lead are beautiful, that they are lovely, and that even a simple love can be a great love.

my verdict: watch Chungking Express. (i watched in on FilmStruck, which i just highly recommend in general if you like film)


Monday, May 8, 2017

the weekly thing: tumbleseed

hi, welcome to my first weekly thing. this monday i'd like to talk about a game i've been whittling at for the last week (without much luck, but plenty of fun), Tumbleseed


Tumbleseed is best described as a (literal) delicate balancing act between a roguelike (procedurally-generated levels, loss of items at death, notoriously difficult, heavy on replay value (think Mystery Dungeon, Faster Than Light, Spelunky, Diablo, etc.)) and the most intense game of marbles you've ever played. using a vine, the player is charged with rolling a seed back and forth while ascending a mountain-path, avoiding precarious holes and a host of unique enemies along the way. although the path is randomly generated upon each play, nothing about its gameplay is unpredictable—rather, as any good roguelike, its mechanics are ironclad and your only surety in the shifting world. 


securing different power-ups (30) upon your ascension, each play-through is a vastly different experience as you learn to adapt to the hostile mountain's environs. one play you might find yourself blasting your way through with the laser-flowers or the pistol-seed, while another might see you stealthily climb using the cloak-seed or the jump-seed (my nicknames, as i've never kept one long enough to remember the name). the possibilities are as endless as they are unpredictable. on paper the journey may seem short-lived, sojourning through 5 areas before facing the game's end, but lord knows that aside from divine intervention you'll be spending plenty of time in the forest (like me) before you're even fit to slay your first lip-snake (again, my nickname, but i sure hope they're actually called lip-snakes) or narrowly divine your way across't the holey grounds consistently.

(there's the lip-snake!!! i hate it!!!!)
i like Tumbleseed a lot!! and many of the same reasons that i enjoyed Spelunky (although a very different game) are found here as well. it's one of those games whose mechanics stick with you outside of the game; i find myself constantly balancing the mouse on my computer screen and tilting my phone absent-mindedly when scrolling (slowly!!) through content, as though i'm subconsciously fine-tuning my motor skills for my next journey up the mountain. it's a difficult game to master, but i think that makes it a game that's all the more enjoyable for just being a fun game to play. when i mentioned "whittling", i really meant it. the reward in playing isn't manifested in achievements or unlockable content, rather in the pure unadulterated fun of becoming intimate with a cunning and beautiful (beautiful!!!) world. the game's soundtrack is fantastic, and at moments is reminiscent of Disasterpeace's stunning soundtrack to indie game FEZ. the game also reminds me of the similarly organic plot-line'd Studio Amanita's Botanicula: seedlings righteously seeking to fight for the greater good (wayyy less drug references, though.. make of that what you will).

Tumbleseed is only $15, which is a fantastic steal for this terrifying(ly cute) pinball "roguelite". i played it on my Nintendo Switch, which i think is the ideal setup as it's one of the first 3rd party games to really realize the use of "HD Rumble"—it actually feels like you're rolling a marble from left-to-right and that Flabbergasts me.

my verdict: play Tumbleseed.


(images from tumbleseed's official website, except for the last one, which is from my own righteous journey ✊ )

Thursday, May 4, 2017

the "the weekly thing" thing

Hey, and hello, as part of me getting back into the swing of writing and distracting myself from: my future, politics, the eventual heat-death of the universe (classic!!)... I've decided to write about a thing I'm doing, weekly. I want to keep it similar to my recently-annual practice of "consumed" entertainment, so it'll be things like a movie or film I saw, a book I'm chugging through, a game I've played, or an article or some such that I've read. Things Like That.

I'll just keep it simple. Something like a paragraph. I like to be pretty brief elsewhere when presenting my opinion on stuff people should check out (see: my facebook), so here will be a nice little corner I can kinda unpack my interests (or un-interests) a bit.

I'll try to post once every Monday..

We'll see!

Friday, January 6, 2017

Some Stuff I Consumed for the Better in 2016: Books

2016 was a really good year for Zach and Books. It's very rare that I wonder consistently, from book to book, whether or not I'll ever be satisfied again after such an incredible narrative. I'll detail them in the order I read them this year (not including smaller/unfinished works that I partook in this year).

Music for Chameleons by Truman Capote - A wonderful collection of short stories by Truman Capote. The book was dusty and hidden in the bottom of an old box from ye olde college days, a gift from an old English Major compatriot in my freshman year who was sad to see me go on to major in Biology for a whole whopping half-semester. She graduated later that semester and told me that I had a mind for stories and that I'd enjoy this and another book she gave me by Willa Cather, "The Troll Gardens". Once more an unknown author. Surrounded by the effluvia of my pride, I took the books graciously, she graduated and got married like all Biola Graduates are wont to do, and I promptly forgot them until I'd been graduated with my english degree hung on a wall these two years, simpering in my personal slough of despond.

Truman was delightful. The previous year was filled with Roberto Bolaño and an unhealthy load of Haruki Murakami, and I'd left no room for my humor or wit to be engaged. These two authors, focussed on the depravity and the unknown, had left me grasping in the dark. Seeking reprieve from my (beautiful) edition of "Moby Dick", I found "Music for Chameleons" sitting on a stack of things to sort in my room for the new year and thought I'd take that with me on my day off, a light book for a light day. It was halfway through my bagel sandwich, choking, that I realized that I'd been too flippant with the nature of this collection of short stories (or recollections, if you prefer), and found myself hypnotized and entertained more than I'd been by a book in years.

Capote's short stories seem to be small vignettes of his own fantastical life, some almost a prototype of sorts for his "In Cold Blood", the greater known of his works (which I have yet to read, as well). His writing is economical and sharp, and his dialogue more realistic than the conversations you have with your loved ones. It goes without saying that all the recommendations I make on my blog come with high commendations, but I feel that of all the books featured here this would be the most approachable and appreciated by the everyman.

New York Trilogy by Paul Auster - I haven't read much Raymond Chandler in recent years, "Maltese Falcon" continues to collect dust on my shelf, and I've only read one Agatha Christie mystery in the last four years, but I'd like to think that Paul Auster's "New York Trilogy" has absolved some of these egregious sins. If you were unaware by the associations, Paul Auster has crafted three novella in the noir/detective/mystery genres whose underlying message focuses on identity. A pretty, you know, vague and huge topic.

I thoroughly enjoyed the three novella ("City of Glass", "Ghosts", and "The Locked Room") as a deconstruction of the crime fiction genre, and the cold stare into the deep abyss of solipsism. A hard-boiled detective can only be so hard, so boiled, and Paul Auster does dances elegantly on the fine-line between the heavy-handed and the obscure. His characters are simultaneously relatable and ethereal (or infernal, depending on the book), and the conceits are always fascinating and provocative.

Come for the existential dread, stay for the crippling anxiety.

The Left Hand of Darkness by Ursula Le Guin - One of the best pieces of science fiction I've ever read, and my first dive into an Ursula Le Guin novel. Perhaps the greatest uncertainty the average reader has nowadays with being recommended a book within the genre of sci-fi is the perceived execution: joining some unfortunately-named character (typically consists of X's and unpronouncable jumbles of consonants with all manner of weird apostrophe and accents), we venture through some post apocalypse/proto-human land wherein drinks are blue, things fly, and some hugely controversial modern thought is celebrated while some common practice is lambasted as ancient or beneath their culture, etc.et .ce .t c. e.t c.e t. c.e t. c. et. .c e.t . c.

Le Guin either knows to avoid this or just knows better altogether, as her characters and settings are real and corporeal despite their nomenclature and physicality. The daughter of a writer and an anthropologist, she learned the delicate balance of a world and its inhabitants and her writing proves so masterfully in "The Left Hand of Darkness". The concerns of the characters are entirely human and, I think, and interesting topic for musing given today's societal context; her understanding and execution of a sexless race belies a deeper elocution about sex and culture, both elementary and sophisticated.

If you enjoy a healthy dose of sociology with your fiction, look no further; Le Guin is the master.

A Confederacy of Dunces by John Kennedy Toole - I believe I've done an authentic Nathan Lane guffaw twice in my life. The first time was when I was told men were inherently good. The second was when I was sitting in a Hidden House coffee shop reading "A Confederacy of Dunces" and had to leave the shop because I was disturbing my fellow reformed-hipster-xtian customers and a grandma.

I've laughed before, plenty of times. In fact, unlike some, I'm unable to number the times I've laughed here, in my time on Earth. But never before have I laughed so raucously because of the written word. Never before have I had to put a book down and catch my breath, repeating lines out loud as though to preserve them in this fleshy realm before banishing them back to the pages in my hands. Never before have I beheld the belch as such an incredible bodily act, the intestines as such a holy labyrinth...

John Kennedy Toole is one of the last great satirists we've seen—and I mean that beyond the humor, beyond the vulgar jokes that are sooooooooo so so so good. Toole captures a unique facet of human depravity that can be found so commonly today in the Internet Troll. Ignatius Riley, the main character of this fantastic novel, embodies the One and True "M'lady", the "Edgelord", the abnoxious "Anon", that infernal Youtube commenter... And in witnessing the utter ridiculousness of such a person, a certain levity is bestowed upon the reader. "Oh, I'm not the only one that's noticed folks like this!" or "Well, I'm happy to know that they have a rough go of it as well." or "babhbwhbahbwahbwhabahahhahahahahah", all proper responses, and a metaphorical peptobysmol in this future where our every action is witnessed and rated by a host of anonymous ne're-do-wells, hellbent on the destruction of goodness and progress. The book, similarly to Capote's aforementioned work, did wonders for my well-being and probably added two more years to my life.

If you're looking for a good romp, this is it.

The Name of the Rose by Umberto Eco - The final book I finished before the end of this year, and what a work it was. Umberto Eco claims that the reason he wrote this book began with the simple premise, "I began writing in March of 1978, prodded by a seminal idea: I felt like poisoning a monk". But, as he concludes in a post-script to the work, he had to build quite a world around it in order to achieve a work of this nature within the specific parameters he had constructed.

Surely the reason this book has wiggled its way into one of my favorite books of all time was the story, but perhaps moreso than the story was the methodology with which Eco wrote it. Piece by piece, he constructed the narrative based on meticulous historical fact, until the story that formed before him was much more nuanced than the poisoning of a monk; it became a conversation on 14th century Christendom, and probably one of my favorite discussions on Christendom as a whole. The work is simultaneously humbling and affirming, with a sobering reflection for the reader: not much has changed in the controversies of Christianity since the 14th century, and perhaps before that.

The work is not necessarily a Christian one, though the subject matter may be so. It merely tells a tale within that context, which is such a rare and wondrous thing this day in age where anything remotely Christian must either tie itself warts and all to the religion, or deny it and claim obstinate apposition. There is a fear today of objectively viewing the religion through the perspective of fiction without underlying intentions, I think a weakness on both fronts.

"The Name of the Rose" is a fantastic murder mystery, and has actually had a more acute effect on my faith in recent years than any theologian or book on such topics. And I think that's something that anybody should experience, despite any grievances or misgivings they may have with Judeo-Christian thought in general, as Eco is able to write in such a way that you are hermetically sealed from any proselytizing. A masterfully written work and my favorite of 2016.


Honorable Mention

A Wizard of Earthsea by Ursula Le Guin - A fascinating world, but nothing you've never read before. The story and character are fairly predictable. I am excited to read the other two books if only to explore more of Le Guin's Earthsea universe.

Thursday, January 5, 2017

Some Stuff I Consumed for the Better in 2016: Animation

It is unfortunate, an contrary to my nature, that I was unable to consume much of any animation this year. There were small things, to be sure, but as for things that would make my list at the end of the year... not so much. The spirit of Polonius has descended upon me this night and bestows: brevity.


Kubo - My favorite animation of the year, and perhaps one of the most compelling stop-motion films I've seen since Studio Laika's previous work "Coraline". It follows a typical narrative, flawlessly executed, with memorable characters and unforgettable magic, possible only in this niche medium of animation. Along with the works of other phenomenal visionaries like Hayao Miyazaki and Frédéric Back, I'm excited at the prospect of someday sharing this movie with my children/clones/reanimated thralls.


Osomatsu-san - It's a damn shame that this show has a 50% chance of being Totally Not Up A Person's Alley, but that's the fact of the matter. Osomatsu-san is the funniest gag anime I've ever had the pleasure of seeing in my life, but to enjoy it at all one must know more than their fair share of otaku culture... a facet of my life I reveal somewhat begrudgingly. Osomatsu-san is crude, disgusting, and heavily referential, pandering some of its funniest aspects to only the grossest of nerds, and I gobbled every bit of it up like the swine I am.

Truth be told, if you've watched more than two or three anime before then you'll probably be able to get by with this one, as Crunchyroll (the website airing the show, as well as many other anime) does a fantastic job of providing some of the most obscure facts necessary for comprehension alongside the subtitles that you'll already be reading. And who am I kidding, I'm sure everyone will get the Mad Max homages, and the mahjong jokes, those obscure lubricant references...


Mob Psycho 101 - "Mob Psycho 101" was an absolute blast. A psychokinetic blast... haha, it's about telekinetic superchildren, so, that's a fun little joke. With plenty of homage to Katsuhiro Otomo's "Akira", the creative mind behind "One Punch Man", ONE unleashes an incredibly psychotic visual experience following a young telekinetic adept, Mob, as he learns what power is locked away in etc. etc. et.ce.tc.et.c.ec

It's a really good show whose humor begins and ends with its lampoons and throw-backs to other works in the genre. At first it may sound like an over-done idea, but I think that's the point of Mob—similar to how "One Punch Man" focusses on a hero who can never lose, we follow a psychic who has infinite potential and also cannot lose. Rather than this being a weakness, I believe it's respect for the audience, because we are relieved of having to sit through and watch him awaken to his potential after filler episode and filler episode of him working on some superficial or unrelatable idea like physical or psychic strength. Instead we are given fast-passes to character development and world building. The flashy battles are still there (and they are mind-numbingly animated, incredible work that surpasses any other day-time show) and he still does have to reach milestones with realizing his power, but we are given more of a connection with the characters in "Mob", unlike "One Punch Man", whose plot is nonexistent (not that that's ALWAYS a bad thing, but..) and relies too heavily on action and small jokes.

If you're looking for something that kicks the hell out of "Dragon Ball Z's" multi-episode battle sequences (or any other action-anime, for that matter), go no further than "Mob Psycho 101", where you will not only be succinctly rewarded with such, but will also walk away with a more meaningful character and world.

(also: the holographic effect with psychic powers will trigger the euphoria you got when unwrapping a holographic pokémon card as a kid, so, like, there might be an inherent bias here)

Honorable Mentions -


Spirited Away in Theaters - i saw this in theaters and it was really good and the song in the credits (featured up top on the desktop version of the blog) made me cry out loud.


One Punch Man - this was okay but not nearly as good as mob, so mob wins.


that 40~ episode chunk of One Piece that failed to rekindle the fervor